Insane
Never ends…
Jan 19th
My pain never ends. This last weekend, both Saturday and Sunday mornings were horrible. Both hands/fingers completely frozen. Locked up to the point that I could not open my hands at all. I would start to try and open them and then they would stick and pain shoots all the way up both arms. My knee’s were also swollen. If I sat down for more then 5 minutes, I would have serious trouble getting up to a standing position on my own. The pain pills (OxyContin) is not working like it should any more. I figure my body has built up an immunity to it making it ineffective. I think I am going to try and have my doctor change my medications to see if that helps any (and if he even does it). I have so much shit to do yet I can’t do it in this condition. I am so sick of feeling like this that it is driving me insane. Fucking INSANE!
-Dan
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Dec 7th
Man am I fucking hurting today. Both hands are swollen and its hard to type. Today, the first real snow fell. Probably why I hurt so bad. Theres not enough OxyContin I can take to rid this pain (trust me, I tried). I am sure it helps, not sure I want to imagine myself with out it. I have enough corti-steriods in me to make Lou Ferrigno seem like a baby. I no longer have the good insurance that covers Enbrel or the other $2200 a month script that would make my life easier. Go figure. I am back to basics including the sickning Methatrexate chemo drug that I am seriously consider taking again.
-Dan
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Nov 7th
Fuck you pigs! … Never liked farm animals! Should something called Orange Dream from T.G.I.F.’s clump in the cup? Freak’n me out man…
-Dan
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Oct 19th
I just took the live to 100 test and calling bullshit on it. It says I’ll live to 75. Right now as it stands I am not going to make it to 60. See if you have any better luck with it.
Living to 100
http://calculator.livingto100.com/
-Dan
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Sep 15th
September 13th:
I wake up to my left hand in severe pain. In detail, my middle finger (my insult finger) was locked into position at roughly a 90 degree angle. I was unable to straighten it at all. It felt like bone on bone with no joint lubrication at all. It took about two hours before I was able to straighten it out with out any pain. The rest of the day went un-eventful except that my hand was sore.
September 14th:
Again, I wake up in pain due to my middle finger being locked up. This time I was able to get it moving with in one hour (still feels like bone on bone). This morning I ended up with a fever. I slept till noon (or at least when I wasn’t awake shivering or sweating to death). At that point I knew I wasn’t making it to work. From noon until about 4 to 4:30, was the worst fever I had felt in a long time. By the time 4 rolled around, my pillow was soaking wet from me sweating. Everyone thought that I had the Swine flu but I knew better. My immune system went wacko on me and attacked all my joints as I couldn’t move and my body was trying to fight it off with the fever I had.
September 15th:
Well, this time around my finger was fine, it did not lock up. Something much more painful locked up on me. My left knee. I didn’t realize it either until about 2AM I moved or rolled over or something and when I moved my leg to try and get situated I thought to myself why the hell is my knee so hard to move and just as that thought ran through my mind, the pain hit. This happened twice last night. The second time was so painful I actually yelled out. I asked my wife if I woke her up and she said no so I must not have yelled that loud. The pain in my knee was the worst I felt so far in regards to this fucking disease. That hurt bad. I am thanking God that it didn’t last long like my finger did. Uggg… that sucked bad… At least today I don’t feel like I have a fever and I am mobile again (for the time being). I guess I should mention that this is getting bad only because I lost my insurance last January and when I was put on my Wifes, hers will not cover Embrel or Humira like my old insurance did. So now I am back to heavy pain killers, steroids and anti-inflammatory drugs. Let me tell you, if your health is fine be thankful because I can attest that having pain dictate your life really fucking sucks!
-Dan
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