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Morphine
Sep 24th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 6 - Painful
My Morphine prescription was upped today. That’s a nice thing since now I don’t feel like I am abusing it. It should help in the mornings until I can get my Prednisone back. Since my Prednisone has been reduced to 5 Mg, is when my pain really shot up. I have a feeling though that I am not going to be able to get it back which is what I need to control both diseases.
Sleepy
Jun 11th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 3 - Painful
I am very sleepy today. Probably because I did not get to bed until around 1 or 2 AM in the morning. It is Stress Free Friday! As I mentioned in a previous post (SOMETIMES…) this is what you have to say. It’s almost 5PM. Waiting for quitting time. I think I am going to have some German Bombs this weekend. Ya, that’s it, gonna get drunk.

Author Daniel Clark
Endoscopy Part 2 the Aftermath
Feb 18th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 7 - Painful
Well, my endoscopy is done. It was a cake procedure. They put in an I.V. and wheeled me into the exam room. They put a block in my mount for the camera to run through. They then administered 3 of Versaid and 5 of Fentenal (what ever the hell that means). The last thing I remember was a lady telling me I am going to feel a little sleepy and I swear not more then 5 seconds later I must have been out. I started dreaming that I was gagging on the camera cord and that I could feel the cord going deeper into my throat and then I felt it being pulled back out BUT remember, I thought that it was a dream since thats what it felt like. Next thing I remember, the nurse was talking to me and I asked her if it they started or if it was done and sure enough, it was done. I don’t remember a damn thing except for the dream I had which really must have been a dream/twilight sleep.
The weird thing about this whole deal was that when I was awake, I felt no grogginess or sleepiness and yet when I laid back down I was out like a light bulb and then the nurse would start talking to me I then would be up as if nothing had happened. I attribute that to the drugs but it was still weird.
Shit, they took pictures of everything and I wanted to get a copy of them to post up here… I’ll see if I can get a copy of them. They did not look good. He says that I have something that causes my stomach to become inflamed and swollen…
I am home now, and I am laying down to take advantage of being able to fall a sleep on a dime
I took the rest of my meds and FINALLY had my cup of coffee on the way home so I am good to go. Good Night!

Author Daniel Clark
This Week…
Jan 22nd
Posted by Daniel Clark in 7 - Painful

Author Daniel Clark
This past week has been bad. Every morning my hands have been the worst in terms of mobility. I can barely put on my on damn socks they hurt so bad. Once I sit down, its a battle to get back up under my own power due to my knees and ankles. The pain meds I have been taking are not working as well as they normally should since I have been taking them for years now and my body has built up an immunity to them so now I have to take double the amount I would normally take to get the same effect to take the edge off. My next appointment I am going to try and get different pain meds and alternate between the two so that they may work better. Also going to try and get my doctor to up the corticosteroids. I can’t believe I am still sane after all I have been through so far…
-Dan
Never ends…
Jan 19th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 9 - Unbareable Painfull
My pain never ends. This last weekend, both Saturday and Sunday mornings were horrible. Both hands/fingers completely frozen. Locked up to the point that I could not open my hands at all. I would start to try and open them and then they would stick and pain shoots all the way up both arms. My knee’s were also swollen. If I sat down for more then 5 minutes, I would have serious trouble getting up to a standing position on my own. The pain pills (OxyContin) is not working like it should any more. I figure my body has built up an immunity to it making it ineffective. I think I am going to try and have my doctor change my medications to see if that helps any (and if he even does it). I have so much shit to do yet I can’t do it in this condition. I am so sick of feeling like this that it is driving me insane. Fucking INSANE!
-Dan
Pigs
Nov 7th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 0 No Pain
Fuck you pigs! … Never liked farm animals! Should something called Orange Dream from T.G.I.F.’s clump in the cup? Freak’n me out man…
-Dan



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