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Still Here
Sep 2nd
Posted by Daniel Clark in 4 - Painful
I am still here and alive. It’s been awhile since I posted anything. To much bullshit going on but so far now its getting better (knocking on wood). I do believe I have found all the right Doctors (ones who actually care) and not one of them is from Cleveland Clinic!
I am going on my second month with Embrel but I have yet to feel any better. I have to wait at least three months for it to take full affect. I am hoping it works but I would have thought by now that I would be feeling better, not yet though. If it does not work by the third month I don’t know what my Rheumatologist’s next plan of attack will be?
-Daniel
Tags: 4 - Painful, Aching, AS/RA Report, Boring, cleveland clinic, Doctors, Embrel, My Mood, Not Rated, Pain Rating, Personal Blog, rheumatologist, Useless RamblingsSleepy
Jun 11th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 3 - Painful
I am very sleepy today. Probably because I did not get to bed until around 1 or 2 AM in the morning. It is Stress Free Friday! As I mentioned in a previous post (SOMETIMES…) this is what you have to say. It’s almost 5PM. Waiting for quitting time. I think I am going to have some German Bombs this weekend. Ya, that’s it, gonna get drunk.
Coffee
May 19th
Posted by Daniel Clark in General
I am on my fourth cup of Star Bucks coffee today and I still can’t wake up… –Daniel
Tags: General, Not Rated, Personal Blog, star bucks coffee, Useless RamblingsSometimes…
May 11th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 6 - Painful
Sometimes you just have to say-
Tags: 6 - Painful, Aching, Boring, Fuck It, General, Misc., My Mood, Pain, Pain Rating, Personal Blog, Rated, Rated: PG, Say, Sometimes, Stressed, Useless RamblingsFuck It.
Tired
Mar 29th
Posted by Daniel Clark in 3 - Painful
Feeling really tired and drained. Finally for once though I can report that I am only aching and nothing is locked up. My best friend is very sick (Rusty). Not sure whats going on with that. Coming off of Oxycontin or at least trying to slow down on it now that I am not in severe pain is a bitch. It all sucks…
Tags: 3 - Painful, Aching, Aching, AS/RA Report, Boring, Drepressed, My Mood, Not Rated, OxyContin, Pain Rating, Personal Blog, rusty, Severe Pain, Sick, Useless RamblingsLife
Mar 3rd
Posted by Daniel Clark in 2 - Little Painful
February, March and April are my worst months. My middle finger on my left hand is now becoming deformed due to the joint fusion. Every morning I can not straighten it out. My rheumatologist is unable to keep my pain under control so now I have been referred to a pain specialist. Maybe this can be a good thing. Maybe they will give me the pain meds that actually work. I don’t know how many times I have said that I am getting so tired of the pain… I probably sound like a fucking record skipping over and over…
Insanity would best describe how I feel. I know now, how others have to live with pain that are far worse then I. Even then, I have problems dealing with my own situation and there are others far worse. I can’t imagine how others worse then I deal with it when I feel so insane from it. I am writing now because I can not sleep. The best thing you can do for insomnia is get up and do something.
I think I am going to file for short term disability through my work. I can’t be there on time on top of missing at least one or two days every week. I’ve talked with my boss and now trying to schedule a meeting with the President to see what I can do. This is something I have been trying to avoid. I keep thinking that I might get better and some days it feels like that but then I am reminded that any one with this disease has never gone into remission, my immune system goes crazy and then I have a flare up. I am so tired so so so so tired of the same shit over and over and over etc… It never fucking ends and it literally never will.
Tags: 2 - Little Painful, Aching, Arthritis, Boring, Drepressed, february march, flare, fusion, General, Immune System, Insane, meds, Middle Finger, Misc., My Mood, Pain, Pain Meds, Pain Rating, Personal Blog, Rated, Rated: PG-13, rheumatologist, short term disability, Stressed, Useless Ramblings


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