Suffer
I have no idea how to even explain how the last week has been. Well, I have AS and or RA so I take a lot of drugs. One of them being OxyContin. I get a month at a time and since it is a controlled substance, I have to have a prescription each month. This time round, I had my wife call my doctor to get my OxyContin Script. I normally request the script 7 days in advance since I won’t have to be with out. Well I ran out and had to wait 4 days with out any OxyContin. Now, the last 4 days I have been detoxing. Detoxing from 40 Milligrams of OxyContin a day!
I finally got my scripts so the aching, painful movements are gone now. The edge has been dulled to a almost nothing now. This was one of the worst weeks this year for me. The only thing I have a hard time with is knowing that something as small as a pill has such power of me. But then again, I need this pill to live a half way normal life. I am on a double edge sword. At least I am still alive…
-Ruger
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December 15th, 2007 at 2:05 pm
I should also mention that on the 11th, I slipped up and had two cigarettes. Then, the next day I had 2 more. For the next week and so far, that was it so I am not reseting my counter. I’ll create another counter for the times I fucked up and had a smoke. I sound like I am not going to try don’t I? At this point after being reminded that I have no control over my disease and the drugs that I have to take to survive, I am going day by day.
Ruger
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